Monday, April 22, 2013

Is this really the end?

About four months ago, I had just arrived and everything was so different and shocking. The smells were intense, the sounds were overwhelming, and I felt lost. I didn't realize I had adjusted so much to life here in Hyderabad. Now I feel like I just got used to this place. I have developed a taste for the cuisine, I have made friends, and I actually know where I am, and where I want to go. I have so much more to do and see here. I don't feel like I am ready to leave yet. I want to find a way to come back to India. I also want to find a way to stay in contact with the people I have met here.
It is almost scary to think of coming back home so soon. I will miss the cows in the road as I walk to class. i will miss being able to get a ride home for $2. I will miss having amazing food at any time of the day for less than $5. I will miss the sense of time here, and the pace of life here. I will miss the mass amounts of people moving around me all the time. I wish that I had seen more of this place. I wish I had more time here. i have learned so much about myself, and the way I relate to others. I have learned so much about US-India relations, and the ways the US has changed living circumstances for Indians. I have gained insight into Indian sexuality and socio-cultural norms... and I have learned that we aren't as different as i once though we were.
I have had the opportunity to build solid relationships with Hyderabadi locals, and Indian women who have embraced Indian feminism. I have learned so much from these girls, and I hope to stay in contact with them for a very long time. It has been a pleasure spending time with them, getting to know them, and learning from them on so many different levels.
I love India, and I hope to come back and continue my learning process with her throughout my life!